I type

I type this late at night...

I type this late at night, during the day, during nap time.

I type this with a purpose, without a purpose, intending to post but not quite getting the words write so it only is a draft.

I type this so I can share, so I don't have to share, so I can reflect, so I don't know why I type this but I do type and it is messy and not very good but I imagine somewhere I type this and it gets read or it doesn't but still I type this.

Random thoughts don't really make sense.

LM has started rolling.

Rolling back and forth from his back to his front and back to the back (but only the way he came). It is a silly half roll but it gets him where he wants to go often enough. It also has me super paranoid about leaving him unattended for a microsecond.

LM has also discovered new ways to talk. He mumbles like he is blowing bubbles but without the bubbles. He also does this fake cough and hyperventilating then scream thing that he thinks is hilarious, especially during mass (thus why we went straight to the cry room).

LM is just making me realize how fast it is going by. He doesn't even fit into 3 month stuff or even 6 month old stuff. I want him to stay a baby but yet I love all the progress he makes. I love the way he looks at me or the Hubs and I can just see the love and adoration. It is a drug and I love it but I know soon enough it will be "I hate you" and "You can't make me". I want to ask my mom how she copes with how it went by so fast. I want to know exactly how it feels for her babies to have babies. At the same time I don't want to know. I just want to absorb every moment and cherish it but I know my weak human memory won't ever do it justice.

Traveling with babe

Okay back in the day (what like a year ago) I loved taking weekend trips. I would travel across the state on a regular basis. Choctaw, Okemah, Stillwater, Tulsa and anywhere road trip yes I am in. Driving never, ever really bothered me.

Enter husband, traveling still fun a little more work if I want to leave because let's face it I packed for both of us or someone wouldn't have socks or underwear (makes me wonder about all the trips he made to Stillwater).

Enter infant, packing now takes a hour and a half, I kid you not. This is with me furiously trying to pack and taking off early. Also I don't always pack as much when we go to my 'rents because I have stuff we use of theirs. Mind you I am taking care of the baby half the time, poor hubs is exhausted from work but seriously?!

This is my process. (Yes I have a process because in the last month we have been to Mammaw & Pappaw's every weekend.)

First-I mentally make a list of everything we need for the weekend. [clothes, diapers, stroller, camera, diaper bag, breast pump, breast milk, baby swing-we have given up on the bassinet]

Second-I gather all the Mommy & Daddy stuff and pack their bag.

Third-I gather all the Little Man stuff and pack his bag [includes clothes, burp rags (optional), blankets, carrier, cloth diapers, doublers]

Fourth-I pack the diaper bag.

Fifth-I pack the breast pump, milk, bottles and all parts. [half the time I have to pack them dirty if we are going to my Mom's because I am in a hurry and thus can wash them at her house]

Sixth-I pack my purse, our camera(s), any video games/ipods we want.

Seventh-I gather all items going on the trip and set next to back door so I can double check I have everything.

Eight-I prepare the car [usually have to clean a little] and load all the stuff (a feat in and of itself as we both have smaller cars and a ton of stuff and that is without the jogging stroller.)

Nine-Everyone gets in the car and we go as Mom is covered in sweat and exhausted.

Ah, how life changes with a babe.

Adventures in Cloth Diapering

I can't remember exactly what I posted (or if I did) about our new adventure into cloth diapering. So, we are trying cloth diapers, have been about for a month now. Now you are caught up.

(Look my little rocker baby in his matching cloth diaper! Aren't they cute? [the diaper and the baby])

I had bought some diapers before Little Man was born (way back when we call him LM because we were stumped on the name front). And then we received tons of disposables but after buying a box of diapers and reading some more on cloth diapering I decided I did not want to 1) spend money on diapers I threw away, 2) contribute to massive landfills and dispose of human waste that way, 3) put chemicals that actually freak me out (what do they put in these 'sposies seriously) next to my babies junk. So after talking to the hubs and convincing him I would train him and we would save moo-la we decided to try it out. I started using the two BumGenius 3.0 dipes I had purchased and then I purchased 4 other brands of pocket diapers (1 FuzziBunz One-Size, 1 Happy Heiny One-Size, 1 GroBaby One-Size and 1 BumGenius Organic One-Size).

Anyway it definitely took some learning but I at once loved them. The Hubs took some convincing (especially since the leaks have happened mostly on his watch). Apparently LM is a super soaker and we need to change him often. Also if you are trying out different brands and or types I would give yourself some time to get used to them all because they are not all the same.

I went the pocket diaper route because I wanted it to be the easiest thing for the Hubs. Though now I figured out that I could have went with prefold (flat layered cotton you fold or pin onto a baby) and wraps and just prefolded the cloth and placed it in the wrap. Who knows maybe I will buy some of those next round. The other thing is I wished I had started buying diapers earlier because while they are cheaper in the long run the initial cost is kinda high. I also didn't really notice a change in our bills either because I run a load every day for the diapers.

I love CDing!!! It isn't really more work than one load of laundry a day. I use them when we travel and go to visit my mother and everything. They are soft and keep him dry plus I get to re-use them and I don't feel wasteful. Best of all it is cheaper!!!!


Here is a link I posted because I am trying to win some free diapers!
FuzziBunz® Cloth Diapers, Wipes, Changing Pads and Nursing Pads: Earth Friendly Baby Care!

My wanna-be blog

I think I figured out what kind of blog this is...it is a wanna-be blog. It wants to be important and have interesting things to say that people will devour! But alas my life is not that interesting.

Anyway, we had the dreaded garage sale and made some dough and got rid of some stuff. I think it is ridiculous the amount of crap we have (do not get me started on the trash we produce). I not to throw usable stuff away because that is wasteful but either donate or sell it but seriously it is tempting to have a dumpster and chuck everything I have not used nor thought about in the last 6 months.

I imagine this will only get worse as LM gets older but right now I have to contend with all the stuff the Hubs brought in (from his parents house that we didn't sell, more than all the stuff we set out for the garage sale, probably).

Good news we made some dough, bad news I got ate alive by mutant mosquitoes!

What happens

I noticed this change that started happening some time last year, my tastes changed and the things I obsessed about changed.

I stopped looking for new music to listen too, I spent my nights reading while my husband was asleep, I started to love design blogs and became interested in furniture. After I became pregnant my interests became preparing for the baby (totally understandable). This makes me question my interests, makes me wonder who am I?

Who am I, what do I want to do with my life? These questions have always been the hardest for me to cope with. It seems like every time I settle into a role everything changes. Not necessarily bad but lately I wonder and worry about the "mommy-ness" I seem to be oozing everywhere. I know I am relatively young for motherhood (especially since none of my friend that are my age have kids) but I don't mind. I love children.

Maybe the thing that stresses me out the most is what other think of me. Believe it or not I am really a people pleaser. I can't stand for people to be upset with me, I don't want them to think ill of me. So where am I now? I don't know.

Garage Sale

The hubs and I have decided to have a dreaded garage sale. You know the kinda of event where you put tons of time and effort to have people come dig through your old, unwanted, rejected stuff, in vain hope of making say a few bucks after haggling with everyone over your unwanted crap. Gee I sound so enthusiastic! But really we are probably choosing a horrible weekend to have it being a holiday and all but I want it to be over already.

I did have half a post written about cloth diapering but after re-reading it I decided it was crap and I could do better. My thoughts on that adventure at a later date.

This post is not exactly insightful but it is the best I have at such a late/early hour. So I will leave you with a cool pic.

I love how their mouths are both slightly open. Sleeping pictures... a favorite.